The last few years of my life have been trying to say the least. I have done things I regret, suffered things I wouldn't wish on anyone and just barely survived to see each day. But God, HE is GOOD. Some doubt, but I KNOW. What I have right now in my life, the blessings that abound so amazingly, are all from HIM. Over the last year, I have seen HUGE problems and difficulties arise in my life, but have been blessed to see even BIGGER solutions and provisions provided by my Savior.
Divorce, loss of jobs and home are just a few of the "issues" that have been dealt to me. Some things happening of my own making (oh the consequences of bad choices!). A lot of things being residuals of bad choices. Some completely not of my making or my fault. Regardless of the reasons behind the difficulties, I have seen deliverance and provision that is miraculous.
And miracles don't happen every day. Things don't "just" work out every day. Plans don't fall into place smoothly. Checks don't arrive in the mail "just on time" nor jobs get offered that are so perfect you couldn't have written them out yourself any better. Men don't walk in your door with great smiles and goofy smiley faced notes every day.
God's hand is in every second of every day of my life. And I owe him my life and my ultimate gratitude for all the blessings he has showered on me this year.
When I've been crying and screaming and pleading for a miracle, he has performed them. In the most unexpected and shocking ways...MY God has shown his love for me.
Yep, I'm riding on the wave...I'm totally rocking out to the tune of "How He Loves Us" every single day, because MY God, he loves me! He really, really does!
Thanks to all those who have loved me and walked with me over the last year and prayed for me and supported me. Thanks to all those who have had long hours or brief moments in my life that have made it easier and provided ways for me to endure.
But mostly thank you to my God for loving me enough to give me a break. To just simply see my heart and know that above all, I want to be what he wants me to be and I want to be a woman, lover, friend and mother that can bless others and make a difference somehow.
Life isn't perfect. I still have consequences of past actions to deal with. I still have residuals of a bad marriage to haunt me. I still have a lot of baggage to get rid of and "issues" to get over. And it's going to be a rough ride again before I reach the ultimate goal. But this reprieve...this time of so many abundant blessings in my life...it will serve as a constant reminder to never doubt the hand who created me or his divine purpose in my life.